Monday Rant#1

Can I talk about fat?

I feel like it's one of those things.

Elephant in the room.

Underrated item.

Over sensitive subject.

When you are neither on the skinny team

nor on the other end you end up wondering what

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means to most people now.

I've had plenty of conversations with my best friend

and arguments with my guy

that ended up like the following:

And me confused whether or not my extra pounds make me fat.

(I mean Mr. BMI likes to say so.)

And because if I were seven inches taller

with the same proportion and size

I would still not be modeling.

Not because of my face (which alone is a career ruin)

but because models are either really thin to be "straight" size

or about size 10& up to be plus size. 

I would be stuck.

After working up my athleticism I am now somewhere between 

a size 8 or 6.

And am nowhere near my old athletic trimness.

I feel solid now, 

my stamina is great,

and I don't really feel the

sluggish, out of shape,

unhealthy feeling anymore.

BUT

I am not where I was a few years back.

Because I am no longer 18

and my body is just not the same.

(I can always be anorexic but that takes too much dedication-

-Nobody kill me for that statement I do not support any disposition that includes depriving your body of its needs.)

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Depriving my body to be slimmer is probably going to damage me

as much as overeating.

But I do feel a little bit on the sidelines when it comes to

posts I see that are all about body and self love.

Probably my favoritest British blogger Becky Bedbug 

was recently "concerned that some people may think [she's] not 'fat enough' to do this".

I didn't know one had to worry about this.

Would she be ostracized if she was deemed too thin?

Is fat just a look and not a feeling?

Can one not feel fat or skinny?

Per say in those jeans?

I have heard people being called fat for many reasons.

An old friend who did ballet said she was the fat girl 

in her class once. And I was twice her size.

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I definitely believe our distorting use of the word fat stems somewhere from the irrational and fantasy based 

sense of beauty.

The rant was for the idea that I might not be able to do the 

same e-course from the Near Sighted Owl that dear Becky worried about.

I signed up.

So lets see if 'fat' can be empowering, inspirational,

and inclusive.

Late Sketch #2

Oh man. Late with posting this sketch even though I did it right when I saw Run to the Wild post it up on her blog. Now I really need to make this link up work!

Wish me luck!

SKETCH PROMPT # 2

Second prompt. Put Pencil down on paper. Close your eyes, let pencil roam. 15 seconds later open eyes. Make something out of your scribbles. Awesomeness. lol

I love these ^_^

I need to find more of this type of link-ups out there!

Monday is coming to a close meaning I just finished working out, I get to work out again tomorrow at bootcamps first day! Let's see how this goes.

Happy Almost Tuesday!

On My Mind

Oh how I have not kept up with this. I really didn't understand before how I'd see some of my fave bloggers go off on hiatus or come back a week later and apologize to readers on staying out for so long.... Now I understand.

There's a couple of things I want to post. One is a thing I'm thinking of doing weekly to inspire me and get me looking again into news and historical people/literature/etc. I'm going to do a "Quote This" section. I think it can encompass enough things so I have some liberty with it and yet encourage me to go and look for new ideas or philosophies. Maybe even quote some loved ones.

I love the link up ideas bloggers have. Its really one of the reasons I wanted to to do posts. I wanted to be able to go around and do fun linkups I've seen around. It again makes me do something lol So I will be doing a Facts of Life linkup with I Wore Yoga Pants To Work. I think she uploaded this Monday... so by tomorrow that'll mean I'm a full four days behind... So sad.

I also wanted to do a quick talk on Darumas. I didn't learn what they were until a year ago when one friend gave me one and now I've decided that maybe it will be a fun little way to stay on course for my things. Later on that.

Hope you guys are having a serene Thursday and getting ready for FRIDAY! Tomorrow... so much still to do for me today. I have to go to work and then I'll have to come home and workout at like 9pm. Pooey. But  next week I start Bootcamp Tuesdays and Thursdays in the morning so I'll be obligated to get up ad workout instead of waiting until I get out of work.

Well I thought this was going to be short but I guess I type pretty fast.

HAPPY THURSDAY!